Monday, January 9, 2012

Day 9

2 Cups Juice: Grapefruit

1.5 Cups Juice: Spinach / Kale / Celery /  Apple / Lemon

Banana

Salad: Spinach / Romaine / Cucumber / Avocado / Raw Pumpkin Seeds
Dressing: Vinegar / Mustard / Parsley / Chili Powder / Paprika


"Eat To Live" is changing my world. It's a must read. Overall, pleasantly surprised at my lack of interest in food. It is becoming less and less of a distraction or priority. I am empowered with having the confidence of knowing that what I put in my mouth is exactly what it should be. More than a weightloss tool, but a disease-preventing and healing tool. I am in complete control.

Day 8

Cup of Ginger / Peppermint Tea 

Banana

Vegan Oil-Free Soup (Aztek Quinoa Black bean Chile) w/ side of broccoli and oil-free hummus.

Raw pumpkin & sunflower seeds

Went to church then went for a walk at Kensington to feed the chickadees. Went to BWW w/ the brat pack. Survived with disgusting tap water. Surprised by my lack of desire to put crap in my mouth.

Day 7

1 Cup Juice: Grapefruit / Orange

Salad: Spinach / Cucumber / Peppers /   Garlic / Lemon / Vinegar

Salad: Spinach / Romaine / Avocado / Garlic / Lemon / Vinegar
                Side : Cucumber w/ Raw, Oil-free, hummus

Cup of Ginger / Peppermint Tea

Went bowling and for a glass of wine. With the dramatic changes in my diet, the taste buds could NOT handle the alcohol flavor in the wine. How odd.... and slightly disappointing. Better off without the empty calories.

Day 6

1.5 cups Juice: Carrot / fennel / ginger

2 cups Juice: Cucumber/ celery / apple/ ginger / lemon
 
Went to see a really lame scary movie.

Recognizing hunger. NO desire to overeat. Feeling genuinely full and satisfied so much sooner than I expect. The thought of consuming beyond that point is rather repulsive. Cravings are incredibly minimal today. So far I’m feeling very very positive and looking forward to the success I will feel when I crawl into my bed tonight. After tomorrow’s guaranteed success, it will have been a week. And soon, a lifetime.

Reading, Eat to Live.

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Day 5

Breakfast Juice:

Pineapple / Blueberry / Blackberry
(2cup)

Lunch Juice:

Green Cabbage / Red Cabbage / Parsley / Cucumber / Radish / Lemon
(1cup)

Afternoon Snack:
Fresh cut - broccoli, red pepper, green pepper, cucumber, pineapple, melon, banana

Dinner:
Salad : Spinach / Broccoli / Tomato / Cucumber / Avocado - sprinkled w/ lemon and vinegar
Side: Watermelon

WEIGHT: 240

Thoughts: panic and anxiety from feeling overwhelmed and ill-equipped, mixed with feelings of tremendous success when these moments pass and I can give them the finger. Reading the nutritional benefits of raw foods has been a major motivator. Read "Skinny Bitch" on my lunch break. No-nonsense inspiration. Dig it.

I wanted to quit so so so bad this afternoon when my cohort decided that she is done. Truthfully, I wanted to quit mostly because I HATE the juice. I threw a fit, went home, and took my time cutting fresh veggies for a salad. I'm feeling full, satisfied, light and clear. Suddenly ready to juice for tomorrow. I may very well be creating a divide within myself deep enough for bi-popularism... or at least a few extra personalities ;)

My body is a temple. Nothing on this earth is stronger than the spirit within me. I'm going to kick and scream to the end if I have to.

Very curious about how this weekend will go. The boy is back in town. Our 'usual' involves dinner and drinks. How will we behave without a meal between us? What will we do? Frankly, my mind is a blank on the matter.

When I am being kind to myself, which is rare, I have to remember how far I have come. That these small and fleeting moments of being overwhelmed are part of a greater journey to health than I choose to be aware of. Over a year ago, I quit smoking pot after a few years of regular consumption. Three months ago, nearly to the day (Oct 9) I quit smoking cigarettes after EIGHT years. Cold Turkey. Buhhhh Bye. Now I am taking the next step in the journey and breaking my addiction to self-destructive foods. And by addiction, I really mean ADDICTION. I feel like I turn to food for every single emotion that comes my way. The last five days without food has been a serious wake up call. I'll save those thoughts for another day.